Good Bye..

This is my last night at Kuantan.

Don't know what to say.

Just wish i still can stay at home longer.

I'll miss my mum,

my dad,

my bed,

my tv,

my pc,

my internet,

my warm warm blanket,

my water heater,

my everything

at home so much.

Too sad to type anymore.





Bye.

复杂

偶然的对话。


妹妹 ：姐姐，我知道你要去读书了。

我 ：是咯...星期六就要走了。

妹妹 ：你明天早早起身，不要睡到迟迟可以吗？

我 ：为什么？

妹妹 ：因为我要看你。

University !!!!!

Hmm...
After days of mind torturing and struggling and thinking and considering and asking and etc etc,
I have decided to register myself at UKM first !!
(alaarrrr....UKM is Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia la.....dun tell me u dunno)

I'm not that lucky la to get my first few choices....
Gov dun wan give me oso i can do nothing...
(Maybe my boleh-ness is not enuff for them in the takboleh-university and takboleh-courses in this takboleh-land)
So let the kononnya-boleh-ppl happy lo...
(eh tzelih, ur 'boleh' thing vr useful...borrow me awhile la har XD)

Btw, to those who don't know,
UKM offered me Bachelor of Arts (English Language Studies).
Eh, i know it doesn't sound pro lahh.....
But at least it's my bloody 5th choice k??
and something i have interest in..
(better than they throw me to perikanan or pertanian or go kaji kayu)
But seriously, i have no intention of becoming a teacher at all.
I wanna try to change course and see how things work out.
(wat course? Genetics la..what else? Biomedic too popular...dun wan waste my chance)
I can always go back to my alternative path.

So, now i have only 1 week left to prepare.
My daddy ask me to write down a list,
i dun even know where to start
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...
All i know is i need to make 2 sets of BLUE baju kurung.
Gosh,
B L U E
I bet the whole dewan will be a sea of blueness.

And ppl told me that my college is the FURTHEST college in the university.

F U C K !!!!

wtf...have to travel by BUS and HIMPIT with ppl and PACKED like sardins
T.T
It sounds terrible to me already.
Why la god treat me like this T.T
I dont want to walk till die inside the university T.T
you kill me bah T.T

Sigh....luckily one of my friend is staying at the same college with me for one week ONLY.
Better than nothing anyway.

I should go start on my LIST of stuff to prepare.
and LIST of questions about UKM.

Bye bye~

ugh...
i hate waking up early !!!



PS. Anyone studying in UKM??? Come help help me....coz i know nothing about UKM..thank you~

PPS. and I'm so excited cause i finally can officially change my status to 'undergraduate' soon !!! XD

PPPS. Am I the ONLY one who received the offer letter and stuff from University today (Saturday)???? Seems like none others receive it yet.

lost . in . memory . lane

model : my-very-pretty-beautiful-sexy-stylish-aunt Suzanne
clothes : model's own
place : somewhere in Bali
photographer : uncle Simon
photoshop-er : da princess (me la..who else?? XD)

Happy Daddy's Day !!!!!

Happy Father's Day !!!!!

Hehehehe...
this is the card i made for my dearest daddy.

The front :

the back :

my SUPERDAD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG T.T
My mum and the kids laughed HYSTERICALLY when they saw this card.
I SWEAR the whole street heard their laughing last nite T.T

Anyway,


Happy Daddy's Day
to my dearest dad~~

I Love You~~

xoxoxo

Obssession

This is the big tree in front of my house
LOL
I have no idea when i took this photo.
Just came across it in one of my many many photo folders.

and this is i-dunno-where-in-china.
My mum (or maybe my aunt) took this photo during their trip to China 2 years ago.
Ah well, of course i edited it.
Just trying to get familiar with all those methods.

Sg. Lembing..

Fine.

I admit I'm obsessed with Adobe Photoshop.
It's like a magic wand.
U can turn even turn an ugly duckling into a beautiful, gorgeous swan.

I've just started really laying my hands on Photoshop recently
(uhm....ya...real recent....like....today LOL)

And this is my first official work of 'art'.
It's a view from a window at the Sg. Lembing museum.



I know i know...
it's amateur-ish, noob-ish bla bla bla...
But hey,
i just started okay?
and i did this at 3am =.=
I've added rainbow (it's kinda faded, cause the sky is too bright),
sparkles~
and some touch here and there...

I'm pretty satisfied with my work~
(LOL..perasan-nyer~ XD)

Anyway,
time to sleep.
Buh bye~

CT Scan (Computed Tomography Scan)

I finally had my CT Scan today !!!

T.T

Had to fast for 6 hours (which i quickly stuff my stomach with FOOD - dumpling, bread, Milo b4 2.30am),
and had to take 10 pills twice (10 hours b4 and 2 hours b4),
and couldn't drink much water,
duh,
why so ma ma fan fan one =.=

Barely slept (not due to nervousness, is played flash game till forgot time XD),
and had to wake up at 6.30am to take those idiot pills (which i turned them into serbuk~)
well, my mum literally shocked me out of bed =.=
then i just dozed on and off until 7 something in the morning.

Then my dad fetched me to the hospital,
registered, and cabut go eat breakfast and work dy =.=
left me waiting alone there (with lots of malay aunties and uncles).
I was like the only young chinese girl there T.T
I sat facing the 'bekalan farmasi wad',
watching the workers going in and out,
which later i gave up watching coz there's really NOTHING to watch.
(Leng zai? Go find in TV bah...the percentage of coming across a LENG ZAI in kuantan hosp is 0.000000%)
So i listened to my mp3 and started daydreaming.
Had to wait for a long time coz there were many patients and there's only ONE CT scanner.
and i just sat there thinking the painful-ness of the needle and the injection T.T
oooooooooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucccccccccccccchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
practically just scaring myself through the morning.
and the butterflies in my stomach just wouldn't stop flapping their wings around,
making my stomach real uncomfortable (perhaps i was really hungry) T.T

Then,
finally,
a nurse called my name,
and asked me to go to another wad,
to put the needle thingy in
T.T
then i had to let another guy do first coz he came b4 me.
The nurse see me so scared den said:

"relek la....tak sakit punya"

T.T
She poke ppl, not ppl poke her, of course TAK SAKIT la...
T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T
Then i told her i did the MRA b4, which is quite painful (it is 'quite', comparing with the antibiotic shots which are in the 'very' level)
and she said,

'tu MRI punya jarum halus jer...'

Then,
i jiu cold dy.
Meaning,
the needle which she was going to poke into my artery/vein is much thicker la
T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T
She almost scared the shit out of me T.T
Nevertheless, she is one of the better nurse.
Coz she is really soft-spoken and nice,
not like some of them which are garang-er than a tigress.
Well,
she held my hand and started looking for the artery/vein.
Then she kept on saying :

"Aiyo...u punya urat banyak halus la....susah nak cari o...."

T.T
I've been told that many times b4.
There was a nurse which poke my hand for many many times until i wanted to cry dy and still couldn't get it right,
finally my mum dun let her poke and a PRO doctor came and did it swiftly and professionally.
So,
the nurse kept looking at both of my hands,
looking for the 'urat',
in the mean time kept saying :

"Aiya..ah moi....u punya tangan banyak halus la...macam bayi punya tangan jer...."

=.=
Aiya nurse, just fast fast find the 'urat' and get it over with la T.T
finally, she settled with a 'urat' below my wrist.
Then, she starting the 'poking procesure',
which i turned my head away the entire time.
Then i saw the needle, vr vr vr long T.T

O M G

i so wanted to faint that time T.T
The nurse kept talking to me trying to 'relek' me.
Like usual, the poking sure got abit pain one la....
But it's seriously NOTHING compared to the real injection part.
Then she inject some kind of fluid in which had no feeling at all,
and taped the needle on my hand with tape.
Then finished with

"tengok...tak sakit kan?"

=.=
nurse ar nurse, i bukan takut kena cucuk oleh jarum la,
tu nanti punya injection yang paling scary T.T
Then she sent me back out to continue waiting,
which i had time to take pics of the needle poking into my artery/vein.
Well, u cant actually SEE the needle, just the plastic thing attached to it.
Then i just waited and waited.
I saw a malay guy, wearing a pair of 'GUCCI' shoes which has a metal tag that shouts GUCCI loudly, and a 'GUCCI' belt,
which i seriously doubted and still doubting the authenticity of them,
but when i later on discovered that he only drives a perodua MYVI,
there's no doubt at all.
Those 'GUCCI' things are definitely pirated one.

FINALLY,
they called my name and asked me to go in
(which at that point i was almost bored to death).
Then they asked me to changed into those very GREEN and thick robe
(which i until now, having to wear them so many times b4, i still have no idea which is front which is back and how to tie them up =.=)
Then i had to lie on this 'bed', and wait for the procedure to begin.
The CT scanner is different from the MRI.
It has a big hole in the middle.
They kinda like push u through the hole.
And the hole there has a thing keep on spinning one.
It's hard to explain by words =.=
Here is a picture of it, not the one in HTAA of course,
but the overall structure is the same.



Then i saw this tag there saying

"Warning, do not stare into laser beam."

I was like, what?
Laser beam?
Laser radiation?
What if i become blind?????
T.T
Oh well, i was just thinking too much XD

Then they connect a tube to the plastic thing on the needle for the injection of iodine.
After that they left me alone there T.T
oh, and this nurse or pagawai,
she asked me

"U understand malay? Coz later they gonna give instruction to u."

DUH
do i look like i dont know BM????
=.=
I'm not that stupid la zzzzzzzz...

And so began the scanning...
at first they just move me in and out in and out,
den,
suddenly,
one of them came in,
and started adjusting the needle and the plastic thing in my hand.

Then,
out of no warning,
the fluid,
suddenly,
just
SHOOT
into
my
artery
and
go
into
my
whole
body
blood
circulating
system.


W T F

Pain like mad.
That lady still said

"Tak sakit kan??"

....

wtf,

tak sakit??

Tak Sakit ?????

TAK SAKIT?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????



I almost give her die on the spot. T.T

T.T

TAK SAKIT???????

Tak sakit den she come do see see SAKIT anot.

They easy to say 'TAK SAKIT' coz they are not the one lying there waiting to be injected.

WTF

Tak sakit, kononnya.

T.T

Then, the iodine flow through my blood circulating system.
The fluid,
has a tingling cooling sensation.
I could feel it in every arteries and veins in my body T.T
But,
my body,
just kinda like,
heated up,
despite of the 'cooling sensation' of the iodine.
I felt real hot.
Like i was having a high fever.
I could almost feel that I'd turn very very RED.
T.T
Believe me,
it's VERY VERY VERY UNCOMFORTABLE to have foreign fluid flowing in your blood veins throughout your whole body.

Then,
after god knows how long,
finally,
the injection stopped.
T.T
I felt so very extremely relieved.
T.T
Then few mins later, they came in and told me finished dy.

LUCKILY they still know to apologise for making me so pain. T.T
and
i give them cold dao again.
One of them ask me

"You dah kahwin belum??"

T.T
I look like i dah kahwin ke??????
T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T
Vr sad and hurt T.T

Then they asked me to go to the wad again to cabut the needle.
I saw the nurse who poke the needle in and happily told her

"boleh cabut dah~"
XD

Then she sambil cabut sambil said:

"Aku pun tak suka tengok orang sakit punya...i pun tak mau buat orang sakit mar...aku pun takut sakit...."

=.=
Haihz...suan she got liong sam T.T
But she's very nice la~
As nice as the nurse i met at MRI department last time...
And so come the end of my CT Scan at HTAA.
They asked me to call again to get the films.
and I can finally go back~~~~~~~~

I was so tensed and scared whole morning that when it was over,
i felt so exhausted,
like i just ran a marathon.
T.T
All i wanted to do was to go to sleep and sleep till the next day.
But i had to go to piano lesson in the afternoon T.T

And i took 2 hours to finish this blog.
LOL...
Getting lazier and lazier XD

And these are the pics i took.

Before the scanning (with the needle):


a closer view, and yes, the red red thing in the plastic thing is BLOOD, MY blood.


The 'aftermath' of the scanning :





I know what i experienced is really nothing compared to other ppl.
But i just wan to write write WRITE...
At least to let those who never experienced it and don't have to experienced it for the time being to feel lucky not needed to go through it...

And so,
I'm
going
to
bed
now
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Muahahahahahahahahahahhahahaahha...